Then it led to a fascination with the laws of manifestation, the powers of healing, and being able to channel spirit. I went through a phase of using the energies to overcome my emotional dramas and get into a place of inner stillness.
Now it's become a more deeper journey of weeding faulty thinking and living my true purpose so I can get out of my own way. There is no end to this. I've met and released my worst fears in these places as well as uncovered pain to reveal potential energy that could be focused on more constructive pursuits. It goes in spirals and sometimes I meet the same fears again, only to work on it at a new level.
I started meditating because I needed to find a substitute for mass consciousness thinking and to me meditation was the third culture that I could find peace and balance. It was the place I felt most myself and where I could "see" me, not in ways life demanded but by how I was really feeling. I didn't have to pretend things were ok when they were not. And they were not. As ugly as it was - this was me in the raw.
I love sitting in meditation to see the goblins inside me whither away at light and then to be taken on journeys that I did not expect to go. Having inner dialogues that reveal more truth to me than books. And I love books. I've created my own meditation methods and find ways to plant seeds of love where fear used to live.
Meditation is an "out of this world" activity and yet the sanest thing I could do for myself -which is why I keep it up. It keeps me in balance and in check. And if I go without meditating for a while, I get agitated or nervous and the world feels so cold and heartless.
We don't meditate to get anywhere - such as enlightenment. I don't think we ever get there... We meditate so we can become more ourselves. So we can open our hearts more to others. So we can keep an open mind. So we do not react in fear but in love. So we can shed away false identities and become more true to ourselves. It does not have to be a religious act or a spiritual one. A simple emptying of the mind is enough sometimes. A writing meditation is good too. Just write out everything going on in your head as if you are listening to yourself talk and you see yourself, too.
This act in itself is one way we can nurture ourselves so we don't have to grab for constant attention from others or seek approval. It is a ways of being in touch with oneself and knowing what you want without having to prove it to the world. It is a quiet yes. A bow to honor the Self.
So next time you have a coffee or jump on a train - just go within and listen to your thoughts. Which ones are coming from you and which ones are coming from fear? Just observe and get to know where you are.
Do you have a regular meditation practice? And if so, what is it? Have you ever pondered the idea of meditating? What would get you started? Feel free to respond below.
Now it's become a more deeper journey of weeding faulty thinking and living my true purpose so I can get out of my own way. There is no end to this. I've met and released my worst fears in these places as well as uncovered pain to reveal potential energy that could be focused on more constructive pursuits. It goes in spirals and sometimes I meet the same fears again, only to work on it at a new level.
I started meditating because I needed to find a substitute for mass consciousness thinking and to me meditation was the third culture that I could find peace and balance. It was the place I felt most myself and where I could "see" me, not in ways life demanded but by how I was really feeling. I didn't have to pretend things were ok when they were not. And they were not. As ugly as it was - this was me in the raw.
I love sitting in meditation to see the goblins inside me whither away at light and then to be taken on journeys that I did not expect to go. Having inner dialogues that reveal more truth to me than books. And I love books. I've created my own meditation methods and find ways to plant seeds of love where fear used to live.
Meditation is an "out of this world" activity and yet the sanest thing I could do for myself -which is why I keep it up. It keeps me in balance and in check. And if I go without meditating for a while, I get agitated or nervous and the world feels so cold and heartless.
We don't meditate to get anywhere - such as enlightenment. I don't think we ever get there... We meditate so we can become more ourselves. So we can open our hearts more to others. So we can keep an open mind. So we do not react in fear but in love. So we can shed away false identities and become more true to ourselves. It does not have to be a religious act or a spiritual one. A simple emptying of the mind is enough sometimes. A writing meditation is good too. Just write out everything going on in your head as if you are listening to yourself talk and you see yourself, too.
This act in itself is one way we can nurture ourselves so we don't have to grab for constant attention from others or seek approval. It is a ways of being in touch with oneself and knowing what you want without having to prove it to the world. It is a quiet yes. A bow to honor the Self.
So next time you have a coffee or jump on a train - just go within and listen to your thoughts. Which ones are coming from you and which ones are coming from fear? Just observe and get to know where you are.
Do you have a regular meditation practice? And if so, what is it? Have you ever pondered the idea of meditating? What would get you started? Feel free to respond below.